Days like this;
Woke up with an awful headache and I'm coughing like hell. I probably got it from mom, who has had since saturday morning. Right now I'm laying in bed, listening to music and going through some pictures. I shouldn't be doing it, makes me very sentimental and emotional. I got home from Germany like three weeks ago, and we had a blast. Days like this I just wanna take the first plane down and see her again. It's really hard to explain the relationship between us, though we lived together for almost a year in very special circumstances and all of a sudden, we're not doing that anymore. Some days it feels empty, even though it was 5 months ago I left Swanville where we were staying, I should have been used to it by now, but I'm not. She was the one I always had around me, for good and bad. She was the one I was sharing bed with, clothes with, sad moments with, happy moments with. We did basically everything together, all the time. And when you're not doing it anymore, and even live that far away from each other, a weird feeling is coming, I can't explain.
While I was in Germany, visiting her, we did our tattoo's together. Like I showed you some weeks ago, it's in my neck, saying: "Not the fruit of experience, but experience itself, is the end". She has the same one, on her right scapula. And that's a symbol for what we went through together. The meaning of it is quite simple but hard to put down into words, but I'll give it a try:
After all, it's not just the fruit (which is a product of something that has been growing) that matters, it's the whole process where you learn something everyday, and that's the experience that matters.
I love you!
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